Money Hungry

I'm in a position that I've always wanted to avoid... and that is getting caught up with financial issues.

I never pictured myself this money hungry in my life. I'm in such a desperate position right now that I would LOVE to drown myself with hours of work. Some people know that I have more than one job, but they're all unstable jobs. I work as an instructor at Kumon Learning Center as well as a private tutor on the side with a couple of kids. Before, my main source of money was from one of the kids that I private tutor... well, slash babysitter. He was facing some issues with family as well as his work, so I was layed off for the summer. I was hoping he'd give me back my hours in the middle of summer, but he was lagging... until this very day. I was also stupid for believing him and should have just applied for another job, but he still tells me that he still wants me to be his kid's tutor... but we will see. I'm going to apply for another job anyway.

Even with having more than one job, it's still not enough.

You probably think I'm crazy for taking in another job and wonder how I'm going to handle this while I'm in school... but I'm up for it and become a work-a-holic. I'm ninja like that.

So, I'm applying everywhere at the mall. Retail is something different for me, so I'm quite excited. Some of the stores I've applied includes: H&M (crossing my fingers for this), Express (the manager was rude, turn off) , Bebe, Zara, Forever21, Guess, and even Skechers (hookups). Whichever takes me first, I'll take it.

I don't know if this is healthy.. to be money hungry. I've become like this because of the expenses I have to pay. It's eating my savings up... and it hurts seeing my account, all that money I've been saving for future plans is going down so fast. The next thing you know... *SNAP!* just like that, it's all gone. That's the LAST thing I would want to happen. I really want to be independent with my money and don't have to depend on my parents. My parents have their own issues to take care of. Plus, I hate asking for money. I'm letting this whole thing consume me.

If it weren't for my unstable jobs... I would have been okay, but things happen.

I'm hangin' in there, believing that God will provide. I'm gonna hold on tight to that right now.
Matthews 6:24-34.